taking my kisses back from you

idolsfall @ 2006-06-07T00:07:00

2006-06-06T23:08:54Z

:]

oh gollyyyy.
boys well smell.
this much - POOOOONGEWWWW.

thats loads.

i love chad, nat and charlotte.

if i ever take you for granted i'm sorry but all 3 of you know me love you long time.

:]

really tired.
dont want to go to bed cos i'm an odd ball and just want to talk to that duuude.

i like these smackhead parties we have.

2006-04-24T18:31:31Z

TOMS PARTY - 21.04.06

bloodey good night i say! bit drunk i say!

me & nat giving this random wrestler a good kiss.

bum sex.

swearing, bad influence.

i don't get what hes doing.

rowney and tom. awww.

tom is a total gay.

me & naterliee.

nat, me and tom.

me cuddling aidanbear. :]

we're cute. don't doubt it.

i actually look disgusting!

brilliant job of taking this charlotte.

camera victim!

hahaha. can't say he looks straight in that outfit eh. i am wrecked!

fag head & me.

heh, kyle & tom love the cock.

me & kyle. mashed yeah.

& kyle loves his moobs.

I GOT THE POWWWWWWER!

clearly a fun night. :]

Term Reporttt!!

2006-03-08T22:57:50Z

EFFORT GRADES
Drama - A
Media- A
Psychology- A
English lit R- B
English lit J- A

(haha fucking Robyn is the only one that gave me a B, and then bullshitted for a reason why he gave me a B not an A, then admitted it should have
been an A, but its reet cos i thought i was getting C's. haha)

ACHIEVEMENT GRADES
Drama - A
Media- A
Psychology- B
English lit R- B
English lit J- A

fairly chufffffed with that tbh!

Valentines :]]]

2006-02-14T22:56:39Z

Meet Lionel[left] who i love lots and have had for some time. and my new valentines pressie from andrew Claudio-Riley. Obviously named after coheed singer & thrice drummer. :]]]

Lionel & C-R get off to a cracking start.

C-R does some advertising.

C-R knows good music.

he plays some good shit too.
]

:]]]

happy with my boy & my beaaaaar.

idolsfall @ 2006-02-02T08:44:00

2006-02-02T08:46:11Z

TODAY, I'M GOING TO MANCHESTER, TO WATCH AN ACOUSTIC SET OF COHEED&CAMBRIA, AND GOING TO A SIGNING AFTERWARDS. OH YES...

AND THEN TONIGHT...

I'M GOING TO SEE THRICE AND COHEED & CAMBRIA LIVE IN CONCERT!!

this is how excited i am....

JDPSAJDPSAJ DJOISJ:s{a:S!:;1f:Dd:3234;:d;2Q321OI=!!!

Thats very excited!!

note to moody people.

2006-01-30T21:05:15Z

I Don't have time for your bullshit anymore.
If you're going to be moody, from now on I have no time for you.
I know you go home thinking "i am really nasty to liz" SO STOP IT

And another thing, if you're gunna slag me off, then i find out and confront you and you say its true & then say you'll tell me to my face next time we have a problem -DO SO! Because you've done it again. Slagged me off behind my back, for something YOU jumped the gun at.

Stop being moody! You don't know it, but you have more than alot of people and you take it SO MUCH for granted its unbelieveable.

GROW UP!

mon cheries!

2006-01-15T19:30:25Z

I swear to you REAL friends, i want to spend more time with you, cos you're worth it. I want you all to come round mine & watch films with me. =D I've had so many problems over christmas with everything and last night Chad came round. This guy is AMAZING, i swear to you he's a star. He knew i was upset and he was too and we just sat there and watched Bad Santa, laughed our arses off and aww'ed alot. I was leaning on him and it just made me really really loved and happy to have someone i can be that close to. I love my friends, cause you're all amazing.Otherwise you wouldn't be my friends. I just have the best friends i could have at the moment. DONT LEAVE ME PLEASE. heh. The true friends i have are great, and we don't get on al the time, because thats just not possible, but we damnwell try!!

things are better now.

2006-01-04T00:13:55Z

I have a feeling he understands eventually. I love him so much.

poserrr. he didnt know i was taking it though. aww.

MOSHHH!

shocked face. he did something to scare me. lol.

he got sick of me taking pictures of myself.

i am metal as fuck. i take after him with my guitar skillzzz.

tad sickly for you?

made me smile like thissss =D

his guitarsss. fittt.

cute babyyy.

haha. lovee.

love the kisses when he holds my face. !!

BITCHEEEESS

2005-12-30T14:57:37Z

I wish my friends that are boys would STOP asking for my advice with their PROPER nob head girlfriends if all they're going say is "but i love her."

SHE'S TREATING YOU LIKE SHIT.

there you go.

happy now?

can you stop depressing yourself to stop your fucking girlfriend from going into a "mood"

LITTLE BITCHES!
go on lick their arse even more.

thats right.

idolsfall @ 2005-12-28T19:17:00

2005-12-28T19:21:18Z

i am gutted.
all i want is my fucking andrew.
and i cant even have that

i'm so tired of crying
my eyes hurt so fucking much

i'm aware that theres peopoe in the world worse off than me
and i feel bad for feeling sorry for myself
but i really can't help it.

i'm fine 1 second.
then i'm really not.

artsyfartsy

2005-12-23T16:26:53Z

Yesturday i took a shitload of pictures with my new sexual camera.

Here's the ones i took of my boyfriend's band [CarCrashRadio] at Topspot last night!
p.s
my boys the one with no shirt on. Hottie or what? ;]

Fitties or what?

visit their myspace at www.myspace.com/carcrashradio !!

PRO plussed.

2005-12-20T18:46:34Z

Last day at college today for the christmas holidays. woooooot.
Pro pleased with that really, even though I can't see my college friends for a while, but i'm defenitely gunna see chris & charlotte cos we're going watching narnia!! & i'll defenitely see Sara, cos if I don't I might dieee. LOVE sara me.
haha so anyway, english was funny today watched some gay film well part of it, it was actually quite good, a 1940's thriller, a bit crazy but very well made even if the sfx were shit, but ts the 1940's so you can't expect much.

After college today Shonagh & Jen were supposed to come shoppnig with me, but jen wasnt in, shonagh said she'd come but surprise surprise, sold me out to go home. But rlyy it was okay, cos mr Chris Westby & mr Chris Ogden said they'd come to town with me. I'm gunna have to call them by their first and second names throughout this otherwise you might get confused. heh.
Sooo we set off to town, with the intention of staing there for like an hour max. but we got really carried away.
I met Tommy to get the christmas present he's made andrew for me. Aww god its fantastic. but i can't say what it is cos Andrew MAY read this.
So yeah, then we went to get food from mcdonalds and spied on people in the foodcourt. Then Sara rang and said she was coming to town so i was all "MINT!" so we went to Fopp, and Chris Ogden got carried away with the amazingness of Fopp & Chris Westby bought the old Gorrilaz album for only a fiver! madness. Theeenn Chris Ogden started talking about girls with glasses and how fitt they are, so i got sad cos i don't have glasses and moaned at him haha. So we went to find "fitt" girls with glasses in starbucks, and Chris Westby made the girl behind the coutner absolutely wet herself by making a complete idiot of himself. funny guy. So theeennn we sat downstairs for ages and took pictures on Chris Westby's new phone [but its shitty hah] and Chris Ogden was like "aaahhh i'm hhoomeee." haha funny. Loads of girls perved on Chris Westby's hair. hah. So then we went to the pound shop but gave up because it was PACKED. and Chris Ogden was perving on males. Then we went to meet Sara & her boyfriend [ANOTHER CHRIS!] and his matee who i didnt know, but he seemed a nice guuuy. We went into priarmk & TK Maxx and me & sara looked at shoes and weren't very impressed. lack off sexual shoes in TK Maxx at the minuite!
Then sara, chris & random boy had to run off to go to cinema and me and the Chris's went to Primark again and Chris wanted some girls skinny jeans, so we found some fitt girls skinnies and he tried them on & everything!! He tried a size 10 & 12 first and they were TOO BIG!! skinny bastard! so he sent me back for the size 8's! He bought both pairs of size 8 & 10!! Absolute POOF! but now me & him are going to share pants. HAHA. how gayyy. Chris Ogden tried some on but he didn't like them too much hahaha. So then we just gave up cos we were allll too tired and i went homee and they went homee.

All together i had a pretty mint day and laughed so much. Proper love shopping with gay boys!

-lizzi x

idolsfall @ 2005-12-13T16:27:00

2005-12-13T16:30:14Z

GOOD NEWS FINALLY!

I got the lead role in the play we're doing for our AS drama final performance. Its a play called Duck. I have to kiss & get touched up by people & all sorts of icky stuff. haha. should manage itttt. even if it will be a little awkward at first.

Here's a reviewww so you know what i'm on about when i chat on about it. I play Cat, aka, Duck, as she has webbed feet apparently.

"Take two teenage girls out-growing their adolescence, shake and stir with a shot of abusive boyfriend and old-man lover, mix with a bit of contemporary Dublin and you've got yourself a gutsy slug of theatre.

Cat and Sophie are best mates and, as such, they share just about everything - binge drinking, secrets, families, clothes, make-up, dreams - but both girls are desperate to break away from their home territory before they end up living a repeat of their parent's lives. Sophie's shrewd enough to turn to a Uni education but Cat gets hooked into some real dodgy relationships with a drug-dealing boyfriend, Mark and a cynical novelist, Jack who's old enough to be her father.

Performances are delivered effortlessly with an energy that suits the style of the play.

It's fast and furious. An emotional roller coaster with some unexpected twists and turns and shockingly powerful scenes. Don't miss it."

WEEE. well excited. =]

idolsfall @ 2005-12-12T20:38:00

2005-12-12T20:37:52Z

i'm so sick of fucking arguing and crying all the time.

like he says "i'm sick of you crying."

stop making me cry then

I tried giving him the cold shoulder when he pissed me off & i get accused of being a bitch & then i'm in the wrong.

I tried talking to him calmly about things and he says "i dont want to talk about this, fuckoff." gets all wound up and turn it into an argument.

I tried sending him a letter. "letters are gay." and it didnt mean anything to him.

and i've tried crying and crying and pouring my heart out. does that work no?

ITS NEVER GOING TO CHANGE!

sick of fucking crying.

idolsfall @ 2005-12-11T09:58:00

2005-12-11T10:04:13Z

hii,
so i went out last night round Wigan to tavern first then to caf. Tavern was boring, just me, andrew, nick, darren, woody & Mike. Then at caf it was a bit better. Loads of well funny chavs, trying to dance and failing & trying to "make friends" they said. HAR. I really did laugh.
So anyway, i embarassed myself quite a bit, i was drunk. :) it was funnn though.

Andrew's college friends are fucking great. They even dance with me. I like when people dance with me. =D

So i was tking to this guy who i speak to over the internet usually and you know online you always say "hi how are you?" and they reply "good thanx you?" and thats it, and you never get past that stage. Well, when me & him talk, we never say more than that really. So i decided it'd be funny to walk up[to him and say hi how are you, when he replied say good. and walked off. I understood it obviously but i dont think he found it funny when i just left him stood there in mid conversation.
HAHAHA.

Its amazing what you do on the internet that you wouldn't do in real life!

So the bands that played were Cadevar Burn [pretty fucking good manchester band] Smudge [kay, they werent TOO bad, i actually enjoyed their set] Car Crash Radio [boyfriends band, i enjoyed it but they all complained and said it was shit] and Soon To Be September [ i dont reckon they're as good with their new singer.]

So I'm off to work now, all in all last night was pretty good, Nick was so drunk he just laughed at me everytime i spoke. The nightbus home at 1am this morning was pretty funny. Except for Kyle being a NOB to Jordan. ohwellll. she's going to punch him. haha.

LOVELOVE x

i'm getting out while i still can.

2005-12-08T18:39:00Z

My relationship isnt so perfect anymore & thats that. I used to think "I could be with him forever." but it seems the likelyness of that is slipping further & further away. I realy love him still & i wish the fire could be re ingnited, but i'm getitng the strongest feelign he doesn't want that. I think the band is what matters to him now, I don't feel as important and i don't get how something so materialistic could matter more than the girl he loves and who loves him. but if thats the way things are, its the way things are, i've tried to change it and i failed, never try to change a guy, it just doesn't work. Can people change or what, i'm not sure the answer to that question is positive!

On the lighter yet still darker side of things. I'm loving my friends at college. In some cases, i feel more appreciated by some people at college in the past 2 weeks than i've felt from other friends in 5 years.Which is fucking good, cos i don't really feel appreciated. My college friends make me laugh at any time and they don't go in a mood with me for no reason, they don't go in a fucking mood for a week if something you say comes out the wrong way, which really pisses me off. They don't take sides against me and put this fucking barrier up if i have a boyfriend and they don't. They don't shout at me or ridicule me for talking about someone too much. They share my interests and can talk about sex without going "tut." This is especially directed at Sara, she's one of my best friends actually, and i've known her for a very short period of time. Even if we havent seen each other for 2 days, she texts me. Shes told me countless times she misses me cos we've had a day off college, which is fucking nice. She doesnt act like she wouldn't do normally just cause other people act that way. She doesn't try desperately to impress people, or if i know someone she doesnt she doesnt start taking the mick out of me infront of them or trying to embarrass me. I appreciate her loads as a friend, she waited the other day for me & Nick to get to the cinema to buy her tickets, even though she'd been there ages. Another thing about my college friends, they don't try to compete with me, that really annoys me. Charlottes another friend at college i've come to really appreciate, she makes me laugh so much & never goes in a mood if I laugh at her expense, she just laughs more. She's one of the nicest people i've met, and i'll say that honestly. Also, Chris, is an amazing guy, i have so much respect from him for his patience and his will power. He's just a reallly nice guy even though hes going through alot, it doesn't show. I really appreciate these 3 especially from college they're pretty much some amazing people who i can get on with & know i can speak to about more or less anything. Obviously theres other people at college who are generally pretty ace, but if i went on about them i'd be here for ages. *blush*

I also really appreciate Nat, Chaddy & ofcourse Nick at the minuite. Nat & chaddy came to mine the other day, and made me so fucking happy, they both understand me loads and can make me laugh possibly more than any other 2 people together. We took over 60 pictures of us just pissing about not really doing much. I'm so close to those two. I'd spend hours with them and still be laughing even though it hurt.

Nick is & will be the strongest person i know for along time to come. He's amazing. I just want to tell him its okay and that it will be. But i dont know that. I'd give so much up for everything in Nick's life to be sorted out. I'm happy he has his girlfriend now, but she pisses him off, I swear i'll punch her til she bleeds from every pour. ;) delightful?

Anyway, We started filming our media video for the song Fall Out Boy - love will tear us apart again [joy divison cover]
We did the scene where he throw chris in the pool, we got carried away with the digital camera though & took ALOT of pictures.
Heres a feww to keep you going!!

Sara, Me, Charlotte & Rachel.

Us girls and chriss!!

Chris, jen, me & sara.

Charlotte, Me, Sara and Ruth! We fell backwards after this picture was taken. HAHA.

Me & Adam. beautiful boy!

Charlotte kissed meee arent you all jealous!

Mr Chris & I. he's pulling a funny face cos he said my nose was in his ear. Its not though.

Cast picture. we're sexy. you know it.

HAHA, we drowned chris. he looks like a rat. hahaha.

SO that was a fun day anyway and there'll be lots more to come hopefully!!

love&such - lizzi xox

idolsfall @ 2005-11-27T22:23:00

2005-11-27T22:26:21Z

I went to Taste Of Chaos tour like a month (nearly) ago & it was amazing.

KTHANX;x.

Anyway, that was just for those of you who were curious.

I do apologise for lack of updates, but college is stressfull, boys are shit & stufs going down i dont want to talk of.

But here I am updating for you. & sticking a fucking smile on my face as usual.

I got to stop feeling sorry for myself though, theres worse off people in the world & i'm moping round like a twat.

The boyfriends on tour at the minuite & being a bit of a mood alot of the time. Shouts & me then apolgises.

I should really say enoughs enough at times. but i love him so its not really worth saying enoughs enough.

& THATS HOW I FEEL SO I'LL SPEAK TO Y'ALL SOON!

idolsfall @ 2005-11-04T10:57:00

2005-11-04T11:08:16Z

ON SUNDAY....

I'm going to see THESE bands.

RISE AGAINST

FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND

STORY OF THE YEAR

KILLSWITCH fucking ENGAGE (OMFG!!)

AND OF FUCKING COURSE....

THE FUCKING USED!!!!!

OHHHMYYYGOOODDD!!!

idolsfall @ 2005-10-11T12:30:00

2005-10-11T11:35:01Z

OMG DAN DIVA!!

idolsfall @ 2005-09-26T08:53:00

2005-09-26T08:00:21Z

Saturday was a bit fun really!!

I went to work to have training. The guy who took us is the supervisor and he is camp as a row of tents!
Honestly! Never seen someone who can impersonate peterkay so well and be gay!

So from 9.30 - 1 I was in induction. Then on my lunch break I met Andrew, got some food and headed down to Urbis.
I saw Laurie & Milly <33333333333 i well miss them two. glad i saw them though.
I saw the lovely nel & lovely esme. brilliiiannnt kids from my college, absolutely bum them.
Headed back to work at 3 and got out again at 5 after a shit two hours of selling skills - bit boring.

Went to catch the bus to Kirsty's and Jas from college leaps on me when i'm on the phone, so Jas as my mum had this long conversation through me. quite funny.
Then i saw my psychology partner NatNat at the bus stop which was nice cos i caught up with her about her work and stuff.

Its always nice to see someone before you think you will.

I got to Kirtys at 6 and the guy was trying to set up the bouncy castle [and he was a COMPLETE SEXY!! he was austraulian and a right fittie!] It finally got up and we started drinking. BLoodey good combination is a bouncy castle & good alcahol.

Rachel was sick at like 9'o clock. I found this funny. she didnt.

Had a proper big chat with alot of people and alot of stuff was told. Now college is pretty much perfect and less confusing just from that chat.

I fell off a chair laughing so much and it wasn't even funny.

Kathryn wouldn't stop telling me she loved me.

Frank ripped into Masters which i thought was hilarious but i was trying to stop it even though i was laughing.

OOH OOH we had wresting matches on the castle, that was a bit funny. I whopped everyone then Kirsty came along and kicked my arse, but i kicked hers back.

A fair few people left and we wne tot bed at like 3.30am. We woke up at 8 and the bouncy castle was still there but it was SOAKED. SO we threw Frank & Nick on to make i dry again and we all went on for a few hours.

SO FUCKIN CHILDIDH, but someitmes its mint to grow down instead of Up. It was one of the best parties everrrr.

;]

idolsfall @ 2005-09-22T10:46:00

2005-09-22T09:51:45Z

Yeah so i really like how i have no friends on livejournal anymore who reply to comments.

anyways, lifes a bit hectic at the minuite.

I spent from 5 - 11 last night crying.

Family lifes a bit wank, mum told me something that someone else swore her to secreacy about and i cried alot because it really is fucking HORRIBLE news that i never would have guessed but now its so hard to get around i'm not sure i can forgive the person who the secret is about.

I really wish i could tell people, i know someone else MUST have been through it, or something like it, but i really cant say anything. I really could do with a friend that i'm never going to meet up with, who lives miles & miles away, who i can tell EVERYTHING to and they'll know everything, but its hard to get close enough to someone that lives so far away to tell them secrative things confidently. But if they told all their friends, it wouldn't matter, because it wouldn't get back to the person it was about. Not sure that makes sense but oh well.

I have a job by the way. I'm working at debehams in manchester in a little shop thing called 'Edinburgh Crystal' which is a crystal selling shop believe it or not. Very posh & i'm worried i'm going to drop all the crystal and owe about £1000 to my boss, but i'm sure i'll manage just fine.

College is still going well, I changed my mind on my psych. teacher, she's really nice. She's now a teacher i think i can talk to confidently.

My drama class has gone a wee bit down hill, its full of bitchiness, but its okay cos i have my knights & knightesses in shining armour. Cursework is so hard though, compared to how it was at school its fuckin hard.

I signed up for a photography class. It means putting in another hour after or inbetween lessons, but it'll be ace just being able to take pictures for a reason, rather than just taking them for the crack of it.

Meh. I wish life was less confusing, but a bonus to life is that Kirstys birhtday is sunday and we're gettng a bouncy castleeee.

WEEEEEEEEE. funfunfun.

idolsfall @ 2005-09-08T12:52:00

2005-09-08T11:56:49Z

Aww i well LOVE college.

Its so ace. I've made so many amazing friends like Sara, Billie, Fiona, Rachel, Lorrie, Jess, Mike, Dean, Adam, Rachel and alllll the cooler kids.

They well make me laugh.

My drama class are all completely dirty minded along with the teacher [HOTT ANDY!] so we have a laugh and we're going to London soon to see 'What The Butler Saw' I play i read in 2 days because it truly was SO ace.

My psychology teacher is a bitch, but in a good way, because she's a good teacher and she doesnt stand for any shit.

Along with the media teacher i have, shes the same but a bit more of a psycho.

My two english teachers, Robin and Jim are quite fun. Robin's very camp and thinks things are funny when they clearly aren't. and Jims just quite and says 'LITERRR-ARR-TUUUURE' quite a bit.

S'MINT!!

idolsfall @ 2005-09-02T13:02:00

2005-09-02T12:04:21Z

If you wanted to know my GCSE results [Final School results before college]

here you go

4 A's.

4 B's.

4 C's.

I'm pretty chuffed with that. I got into college & i dont have to retake Maths. #

Leeds festival was pretty ace.

Check my latest blog on my myspace to find see www.myspace.com/lackthemotion

4 days!

2005-08-21T22:43:28Z

4 days til i get my GCSE results and 4 days til i'm off to leeeds festival.

you do NOT understand how excited i am for Leeds festival.

I get to see SO MANY of my favourite bands, i'm probably most excited for NOFX, The Killers, Charlotte Hatherly, Bad Religion, Rise Against, Foo's, Million Dead, Bloc Party & the list goes on and fuckin on!

PLAN
I get my results thursday morning, Cry for a bit, cme online and tell everyone, cry some more, set off to leeds, arrive, get REALLY drunk & drown my sorrows. Put up the tent, Sleep. Wake up and have 3 days of complete amazing mayhem!! Go home on Monday and cry some more about my GCSES.

sound good?

i'll update you with my results before i leave on thursday.

Comments would be nice too pleasee.

-lizzio

keep talking away. you're talk is cheap.

2005-08-07T17:47:26Z

New Journal - New Loveeeleeee layout.=]

Old Journal name - _bangbangbaby

but lets not go into that.

So kids. Heres the RULES & requests.

don't rob my username. rawr. this makes me sad.
My layouts MINE. Ask & i'll make you one no problem. Don't steal mine though. :(
Please comment more. I comment you men pretty much alot of the time so come on. show some looove.

Thats only 3.

& HELP URGUENTLY NEEDED;

leeds festival attenders:do help me!!

I'm on this street team and Do Me Bad Things are part of it & i'm doing their TOUR COVER at leeds, So i get loads of free shit but i also need someone to help me hand out some badges & stickers at the festival. Pleaseeeee get hold of me if you can help.

xLizzix